what an experience.
exercise starlight in taiwan was one of the toughest experiences in my life. i can't elaborate exactly on what we've done as that would be a security breach, but i'll just post up some of my thoughts which i penned down during the 7 day field camp. it's kinda like a diary kinda thing which i did everyday.
This is pretty long, i have to warn you. will probably take you 10-15 minutes to finish reading it.
Unknown Day
I have lost track of time. I don't know what day it is (my friend just told me it was sunday.. but then again we can't be sure). What date it is, what time it is, it's irrelevant. I chose to gauge my activity instead.
My 3 day navigation exercise just ended. It was quite grueling.. my blisters killed me, my fatigued knees felt like breaking.. and my team wanted to finish quickly so they kept pushing on and rushing without letting me rest. My knees feel totally screwed up now, i've no idea how i'm gonna carry on. Have to stretch up abit :/
Next up is the 7 day field camp.. i don't expect to complete it. my knees are killing me.. fatigue is catching up on me. my muscular strength has dropped significantly and my cramping legs are killing me.
Homesick? surprisingly i'm not. i don't think of home much. not that i don't miss people.. i do. but my thoughts don't drift off to them often. or at all.
Was just listening to 'Bubbly'.. like 'Only Hope', it reminds me of someone =) i think these 2 songs will always remind me of her. i totally enjoyed the times and moments we had.
No, i don't still like her or want her back or anything. Not at all. But i'm just.. longing for a companion i guess. Sure, bestie is good company. but it is.. different.
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Day 1 (of field camp)
My feet feel damp. Haven't taken off my boots for about 20 hours and the rain didn't help. I hope i don't get foot rot. My feet feel disgusting!
I'm an 'enemy'. Yknow for the missions that we do then need an enemy force to fire back? yup, i'm that. that usually means you get to slack and just sit there while ur friends will chiong to you.
i heard it's for 7 days. can i be that lucky? but how can it be fair? everyone else will be walking across the map (50km in total?) while enmies will get to take the vehicle? Somehow i think we have to walk too.
sigh. hope my knees dont quit on me.
It's interesting how much.. peace and calmnes just writing all these is bringing me. i feel .. lifted.
Thoughts of home are starting to drift into my head. My uncertain future also adds an extra burden.. i dont know where i'm going after this course. :/
-large portion got erased due to rain water soaking the paper and making everythign illegible-
~im suddenly overwhelmed by laziness to not blog anymore about this. bye~
